| oh my!(part 2) |
[19 Mar 2002|11:53pm] |
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so today was kinda silly. school sucked big fckin time. it was actually terrible. so after that me and kate got drunk and me her sammy leigh and di went to kohls and me kate and di went in and we took SO much shit. like a ridiculous amount. i couldnt even believe how much we each took it was like SICK. i kinda felt bad about all of it afterwards but my friends made me feel better about it. so then i went to work for 2 hours and that sucked too but whatever.
so when i got home i called brian and we talked for a while. i know im all emotional cause its all about the period at this moment in time but im being ridiculous about him. like yeah i really do like him a lot but i hafta stop being stupid. like ive just gotta let shit happen. we talked about everything and i was like well im just confused and whatever and he was like well lets talk about it. and i was like well obviously i like you butwhat if you come home and you dont like me anymore? and hes like well then ill tell you. and it hit me like wow i hooked up with him a few times everythings gonna be okay. i mean when i call he sounds happy and he did say like i like you too, but im definitly overanalyzing this whole fckin shit. the point im trying to get to really is that i realized im stressing over a guy, a guy whos been my friend for a while and who i have nothing to be stressed over about. i mean hes freakin awesome and all but if things didnt work out with us i could guarantee we'd most definitly still be friends. like dont get me wrong the kid wasnt like go hook up with someone else NOW and he wasnt acting like he didnt like me or anything hes just real about things. hes basically making me realize that i hafta get a grip on life, without saying it. like i totally need to chill and just calm my fckin face. i need to get some serious stress relief into my life. this drunk just isnt working anymore, i need to actually do healthy things to relieve this stupid ongoing stress over NOTHING. i dont even know if im gonna like brian when he comes home. ugh see there i go again with the stupid stress shit. whether i do or not life is still gonna go on. im freakin gonna though cause the pickings around here arent too hot, and he really is a cool guy. this is really too much thinking for me to deal with. in 2 months when he comes home ill worry about this shit. not now. im off im tired. night night. xoxo!
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| oh my! |
[19 Mar 2002|07:31am] |
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wow. i havent written in a week, which is so weird for me. i guess its because so much has been going on. im not gonna go into extreme detail about anything thats happened but here goes. despite what ive written in previous entries, things with me and john have basically just been slowly inching downhill. he really just doesnt care anymore, which is sad but what are you gonna do? so i said screw this i cant do this anymore and broke things off entirely with john. meanwhile, while im making this decision one of my really good friends brian comes home for spring break from college(he goes to notre dame in indiana). brian i had a HUGE crush on freshamn year but decided there was not a shot in hell. hes this tall thin blonde haired blue eyed punk rock boy. hes all irishy kinda and hes most definitly a cutie. he writes which is totally cool and hes absolutely hilarious, i mean no wonder i was attracted to him. at any rate, by the time we became friends we were both in serious relationships, so we just ended up becoming superclose and stuff. anyway when he came home this week, we went out and played pool one night, and he asked me to go to dinner with him. so i said yes obviously. so the next day we were hanging out and we kissed and one thing led to another and, well, i like him. unfortunitly he had to go back to school on sunday and hes not coming back till may, but i can wait. i mean its brian. so at any rate, i miss him alot. i mean i always miss him while hes gone but i now i have a little more of a reason to miss him, hehe. other then the fact that brian is a great guy i think hes really good for me cause i mean hes gonna be gone for 2 months and if after 2 months of him being gone i still feel this way about him then obviously theres something there. of course i will though because its brian and because i really do like him alot, and i dont know. hes 21, hes older and hes more mature. he understands things and we just seem to really click well. hehe i asked him if hed go to prom with me, he said yes. im all excited. anyway i hafta go to school now but ill probably be abck to updating like everyday again now. alright im outta here. xoxo.
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[12 Mar 2002|11:39pm] |
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today was really sad. at the 9am mass at the church in my town(our lady of peace in lynbrook) a man walked right in with a rifle and shot and killed the priest and a woman who was attending the mass. then he ran down the block into the house he lived in and took the other family that lives there hostage. he eventually let them go, and then at 4 o clock the police finally broke into the house and took him out. every school in the district was locked down, which meant that no one was allowed in or out of the school. finally at like 3:30 they let parents come and sign everyone out. you werent allowed to leave without and parents signature though, so the school was in total chaos. some kids didnt get out of school till about 5. the whole thing is just so sad. i mean here are these 2 innocent people, and they were killed for nothing. in the paper it said that the preist was probably basically killed right after the bullet went through him. he died on the altar. all i can say is at least this man died doing what he loved. it kind of makes you think about how short life is and how you shouldnt take it for granted.
im really tired. i have more updates on social life, but for tonight i just really want to go to sleep. brians home for a little. we hung out a little tonight. but more of that tomorrow. xoxo.
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[07 Mar 2002|10:55pm] |
i want a sidekick so freakin bad. ive analyzed who would be the prefect guy over and over in my mind, but i really dont think he actually exists, which is kinda sad for me but what are you gonna do, eh? this is him....
1) hes got to have a great personality. i need someone i can relate to and have fun with. someone to forget the world with. someone who can say a measly sentence and make me smile for hours.
2) hes got to be funny. guys who make me laugh are like nothing else. if this boy has a good sense of humor and once again, can make me smile, hes set.
3) hes got to have a good sense of himself. if he wrote, that would be awesome, but if he just had any way to express himself through anything, i would be pleased.
4) hes got to have a good sense of music and style. id prefer an emo or punk rock boy but hardcore and SOME metal are also do-able. and for the style thing, i mean clothing doesnt really matter to me, but if your mother is still buying you your shirts, im sorry but i dont think i can handle that. oooo and boxer breifs. i mean theyre not necessary, but theyre so damn sexy.
5) and last but not least he has to be attractive. i mean he doesnt hafta be a supermodelstudboy, but you cant be with someone youre not attracted to. its just like a rule. at least in my book.
hehe thats what i want. i have yet to find this dream boy. PLEASE if you know someone who fits into these catagories somehow get him in touch with me. give him my number. or my cell number. or my address. send him through fed-ex, i dont care. just get him to me as soon as possible. im kinda lonely. not that i dont have people around me, like the best friends in the world and family who i love so much, but i dont think im ever going to be able to find a guy that i totally click with. at any rate, ive had enough writing for the night. now im gonna play some monopoly online and think about this boy who im hoping will come into my life. PLEASE if you know anyone like this TELL ME! but not if they have girlfriends though because thats a lost cause. night night. xoxo.
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[06 Mar 2002|11:24pm] |
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im sick again. 101 temperature. i feel like shit.
i broke things off with matt tonight. it made me so sad. i dont know. i dont even feel like talking about it right now. i hope we stay best friends. if we dont i might actually just sit in a corner and cry for the rest of my life. hehe. alright wel i have to go before i actually pass out.
4 men are holding people hostage at the staples in valley stream. its right across the street from my dads taxi business. theres like a whole shit going on over here. my cousin was in staples right before the whole thing happened, like 2 minutes before the whole shit went down and hes all shook up. i feel bad for him. my little joey. if he was held hostage in staples right now id be a freakin mess. not only is he my cousin, but hes in the same grade as me and we go to the same school. i love him so much. its so scary. im so glad hes okay.
what a day. its been a long time since sleeps seemed so beautiful.
xoxo.
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| i finally figured out how to use my brain. |
[03 Mar 2002|11:18pm] |
i was writing last night. i was thinking about the 2 boys who are raping my sanity, cause its constantly on my mind. its kinda obvious which one this is about. maybe ill post another one about the boy who this poem isnt about sometime during the week. ugh, boys. still no final decisions yet. too drunk this entire weekend to get anywhere with it. anyway, here it is.
its not like you can just pick up and forget
if only there was an airplane to lose all this baggage
and fly me away to some unknown place
where i can run around naked and build dreams in the sand
id like to be able to lye down at night
without thinking things over....and over....and over
i want to scream at the top of my lungs
but i guarantee you wont hear a thing
and when i dance circles around you
all you will see is a shadow of something intriguing.
we need to be apart was the quote of the day
do you remember that one?
youre the one who said it.
so if distance didnt knock the breath out of us
maybe it just gave us some clean fresh air
it cleared our lungs
and now we can breathe again.
ill stop polluting you with jealousy and paranoia
if you promise me that you wont let go of my hand
i know that you'll hold on tight.
you didnt have to say a word, your eyes say it all.
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| im sorry i havent written in so long. |
[02 Mar 2002|12:12pm] |
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theres been a lot going on in my life. things that made perfect sense, dont anymore, and things that i thought were a mess, are seeming to come together. id like to understand a little better whats going on. but i guess until them i just hafta sit around and smile. besides, in my own sick way right now, i really am happy.
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[27 Feb 2002|12:26am] |
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still confused but feeling better about the whole shit. nothing too interesting has been going on. other then the sunrise highway naked runs(the girlies*me, diana, kate and leigh* drive up and down sunrise highway completly naked for like an hour out of pure boredom. its actually incredibly funny.) everything is pretty much the same. sleep, friends, school, work, eat, the same shit everyday. no new decisions boywise. still totally lost in that area. more soon when im not so tired. xoxo.
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[26 Feb 2002|01:00am] |
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i keep being told to follow my heart. how am i supposed to follow something thats lost?
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| oh dear. |
[24 Feb 2002|12:28pm] |
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im sorry i havent written in a while. my life has been kinda hectic and crazy. john told me he wanted me back. like wanted to go back out and through college the whole deal. and he totally opened up to me and poured his heart out. im not gonna go into detail but it was like nothing ive ever heard from john auerbach. like i almost didnt believe what he was saying because he never said anything like that but in my own way i knew he was telling the truth. so it got me thinking. i mean this is like the rest of my life we're talking about here. im just very confused. i broke up with matt, not to be with john, but just to figure out my head, figure out what i want. if im gonna be with someone, its gonna be 100%. i mean if youre not then whats the point? if youre not 100% then you're just killing time until that 100% comes along so theres really no point. so as of now, im so confused. i miss matt alot. this is alot harder to do then i thought it would be. anyway im stressed about this already theres no point in typing it over and over....anyway i dont know how often im gonna be writing because sometimes i just feel like crap and dont wanna even move. who knows, maybe this will make me write more. if anyone wants to give me advice please feel free to, cause im kinda lost right now. well im out of here, xoxo.
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| the marquis is back in action. |
[21 Feb 2002|03:21pm] |
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i got my car back! its finally home, my baby. well i gotta take a shower and then bust to kates house, first a quick game of monopoly though, hehe. its so fckin hot out today i cant even believe it! i cant wait for summer! alright laider, xoxo.
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[21 Feb 2002|09:42am] |
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why must my mother feel the need to wake me up so early? i cant even fall back asleep. i guess ill play monopoly. xoxo.
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[20 Feb 2002|04:15pm] |
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im totally dreding work. i hafta be there in 45 minutes. still not dressed. tired. mom got home. xoxo.
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| another one. |
[20 Feb 2002|02:15pm] |
sorry bini, i needed it like you dont even know =D.
five things that make you laugh;
01. my girlies.
02. south park.
03. thinking about people naked.
04. inside jokes
05. drunk sammy.
five things that scare you;
01. being alone.
02. hate crimes.
03. some aspects of death.
04. growing up.
05. jeepers creepers(ha!)
five things you love;
01. mattchew howard neiderrrrrrrrr
02. my girls like you dont even know.
03. the uglies
04. music
05. writing/reading
five things you hate;
01. fake people
02. when my friends are sad
03. random exboyfriends
04. bad 80's porno
05. thinking im fat
five things you don't understand;
01. how matt could love me
02. why i randomly get sad sometimes
03. why theres a big cup o noodles sign in times square
04. math 3r
05. how i never see my cat eat but somehow her dish is ALWAYS empty.
five things on your desk;
01. random burned cd's
02. a huge picture of bob marley my dad bought(weird man.)
03. a sewing machine im gonna start using again
04. a little grey kittie doll
05. a computer that i spend half of my life on.
five facts about you;
01. i am desperatly in love with matt, and almost entirely over my ex.
02. when i daydream i subconciously pick at my lip.
03. i need menthol cigarettes to make it through the day.
04. i miss sarah alot.
05. music makes me happy.
five things you plan to do before you die;
01. be a published author
02. be happily married with children and grandchildren
03. own a pink vw cabrio =).
04. one day just get up and drive for days and days blasting music and laughing with my best friends.
05. be truly happy.
five things you can do;
01. write
02. be myself
03. love my baby mattchew
04. make my eyes big and cute so i get things =)
05. read incredibly fast
five things you can't do;
01. stop obsessing over my weight
02. stay in the same outfit for an entire day
03. save money
04. get to school on time
05. remember to charge my cell phone
five songs to which people should give a listen;
01. konstantine - something corporate
02. only the good die young - billy joel
03. nothings gonna stop us now - starting line
04. screaming infidelites - dashboard confessional
05. everlong - foo fighters
five things that turn you on about the opp. sex;
01. big brown eyes
02. nice smiles
03. skinny boys
04. layed back
05. big....shoes. oh dear.
five things you say the most;
01. LOOKS GOOD!(lock yeah, looks yeah, lock ga, locker, locka ga....they all mean the same thing)
02. sick kid
03. leigh and sammy should go out
04. thats pretty cooooool
05. bebe
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[20 Feb 2002|02:07pm] |
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im so freakin bored. i have work in 3 hours, but i refuse to move or get dressed or ANYTHING for another 2 and a half hours. last night we went to bogarts. alot of kids from lynbrook were there, we didnt stay for very long. everyone got shitfaced. matt puked all over himself in the car and i took him to my house and washed his clothes. lol i put him in this pair of black swishy pants i stole from him like a month ago and my 9876234876234 year old channel 59 shirt which was ridiculously tight on him, but it kinda looked good. he fell asleep on my bed 2 minutes after we got to my house. i played a little online monopoly(dork.) and then went to sleep next to him. when i woke up he was gone =( which always makes me sad. i cant sotp listening to this freakin good charlotte cover of if you leave. its really good. damn. alright im bustin out. xoxo.
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| oooo survey! |
[19 Feb 2002|12:21pm] |
i stole this from linz. dont worry, ill boink you laider for this =).
? General ?
01. name?: joi marie
02. d.o.b.?: 6/25/84
03. location?: lynbrook long island baby.
04. religion?: um, i dont think theres a name for it.
05. occupation?: coffee hell.
? Appearance ?
01. hair?: reddish brownish
02. eyes?: big brown eyes.
03. height?: 5'4
04. weight?: 125
05. figure?: dont even ask me this question.
? Style ?
01. clothing?: i wear alot of black, either black with my little camisoles peeking out the bottom, or sweats with silly shirts.
02. music?: emo. punk rock. hardcore. billy joel. =)
03. makeup?: ALWAYS eyeliner. usually mascara and eyeshadow. sometimes sparkles. lip gloss when i can remember it.
04. bodyart?: ears, one on the inside of my ear, eyebrow, belly button, 3 stars across my lower back and a butterfly on my lower tummy.
? Right Now ?
01. wearing?: old school blue adidas sweats, my grape pez shirt
02. listening to?: billy joel!
03. thinking of?: matt.
04. feeling?: fckin bloated. period go away!
? Last Thing You.. ?
01. bought?: lol beer last night. sick.
02. did?: took a sip of my gatorade. mmmm.
03. ate & drank?: i didnt eat anything today, and gatorade.
04. read?: a walk to remember. the movie doesnt even compare to the book.
05. watched on tv?: top gun
? Either Or ?
01. club or houseparty?: houseparty
02. tea or coffee?: no more fckin coffee. tea.
03. high achiever or easy-going?: easy-going
04. beer or cider?: beer!
05. drinks or shots?: depends on my mood. lol me and my friends are such lushes.
06. cats or dogs?: kitties!
07. single or taken?: happily taken.
08. pen or pencil?: pen.
09. gloves or mittens?: mittens!
10. food or candy?: mmmm spanish food/sushi takes the cake.
11. cassette or cd?: cd.
12. snuff or cigarettes?: cigarettes, i wouldnt suck on that shit.
13. coke or pepsi?: coke.
14. hard or mild alcohol?: HARD baby.
15. matches or a lighter?: lighter
16. sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful?: ill spit on both of them.
17. rickie lake or oprah winfrey?: ricki
? Who Do You Want To.. ?
01. kill?: no one. maybe torture for a little but no killing. =)
02. shag?: oooo other than celebrities, no one but my baby.
03. slap?: oh dear, quite a few people.
04. hear from?: sarah! now.
05. get really wasted with?: oooo my girls! every night of our youth, woop woop!
06. tickle?: mattchew!
07. look like?: myself.
08. be like?: myself.
09. avoid?: haha im with you on the murderers linz.
? Favorite ?
01. food?: oh dear wither spanish food or sushi.
02. drink?: im obsessed with iced tea.
03. color?: pink!
04. album?: mmmm too many to name.
05. shoes?: sneakers will do.
06. site?: www.joyissofreakinhot.com
07. dance?: worst question.
08. song?: right now, constantine, hurricane by something corporate, we didnt start the fire by billy joel, nothings gonna stop us now covered by the starting line and good charlottes cover of if you leave
09. vegetable?: peas mmmm!
10. fruit?: pears and strawberries
11. berry?: strawberry .
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| too early to be awake! |
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yesterday ended up being so fckin bugged out. like beyond. first, i woke up and i go online and i write in my livejournal, whatever. play a little monopoly and chess online cause im a dork. but then that got boring because i dont know it just does so i was looking at webpages and i went to urbanoutfitters.com and the front page loads, and on it is a picture that looks EXACTLY like di. EXACTLY. her parents are worried. they actually think its her head on someone elses body. they called the company. for the people who know diana, does think not look EXACTLY like her?
its CRAZY.
so i called kate and told her about it and than she called di a little later cause it was still kinda early and di bugged. so THEN i go to the bowling alley with my mom, aunt, grandma, and little cousins jonathan and jennifer, and before we go bowling, we sit at the snack bar thing and get food. so this girl comes up to me, she was a few inches taller than me and a little bigger boned but not much and she looked almost spanish i was guessing and goes whats your name? and im like joy....and my mom goes do you think you know her from somewhere(to the girl) and she goes "something like that". and then she walked away so i was like weird. alright. so like a half hour later im bowling with my family and she comes over and taps my shoulder and goes joy and hands me a note. and on the note was my name and it felt like there was something in it. so i open it up and theres this little metal heart ring in it, and the note said its not that i thought i knew you, its that i wanted to get to know you better. love talia. and she left her number. honestly it was crazy. i didnt even know what to do like i called the girlies and i bugged. i told matt too. i mean i was flattered, but i never had anything like that happen to me before, i mean with a girl. like once a few years ago a woman said something to me and sarah but we just laughed and walked away. i was in shock. so we go home and i went with matt to his aunts house to pick up taffy(his dog) cause they left her there while they went to look at colleges. we ate pizza and talked to his cousins. our friends called and said they were going to bogarts(a bar around here that lets us in) so we met up with them after matts aunts, and headed out to bogarts. it ended up being closed and we went to this other one called bee-jays, but whatever. on the way there we decided to call talia. well i couldnt, i just felt bad/strange, so kate did it and said it was me. talia said to kate that she didnt think i was gonna call and kate very nicely told her that she(being me) wasnt really into that stuff, but that maybe we could hang out as friends sometime. she said that talia said, yeah you didnt seem like you would be grossed out but you didnt seem like you were into girls, but it was worth a shot. i dunno, i think the girls got serious fckin balls to do something like that. i know ill never call her again, just because i dunno, i just wont, but in my own sick way i like her(not sexually obviously). it takes some serious self confidence to do something like that. so then we go to the bar and we all get sloshed. matt was wearing leighs hat for a good portion of the night. hes fckin precious. so after the bar, we go to matts house. and thats when the shit hit the fckin fan. we were watching tv, and then we started kissing, and then more than kissing, and then alot more than kissing, and then his dad walked into the room. and im not gonna go into detail but it was BAD. i couldnt even breathe i felt so fckin disgusting. i had to get out of that house. it was only like 12:30 but i couldnt stay there like i couldnt even handle seeing his fathers face. honestly i dont even know how ill ever even look at that man again, but im not gonna worry about that right now. i mean dont get me wrong, matts dad is fckin ill. like hes the type of guy thats pretty open about sex related shit, when matt turned 16 he gave him his first box of condoms and said look you'll be needing these, if you dont need them already, but i still felt terrible. i mean hes not matts real father, but hes the only father matts ever had and he does a good job at it too. matt felt SO bad. he kept saying he was really sorry and stuff, and i wasnt even mad at him in the slightest, i mean that wasnt his fault at all, i just didnt know what to do. so matt called me like 5 minutes after he dropped me off, and he was like look when i got home my dad was at the kitchen table and was like look im not gonna tell your mother about this because theres no point. im just gonna try to block it out of my head so i can eat for the next few days(being sarcastic obviously) but look, we put a bed downstairs in the basement for a reason, you know id never go down there, why didnt you guys just go there? and i guess that made me feel a little better but i dunno, i dont even wanna talk about it. i told matt i had to go after he told me that. i didnt feel like talking to anyone, i felt terrible. how can i ever look at his father ever again? whatever. anyway today i have work for like 7 hours, which sucks but its money. im going back to bed because the midol kicked in(which was the reason i was awake to begin with at 7 in the morning on a day i dont have school, i had fckin terrible cramps) and im tired. besides i just wrote up a fckin storm. im gonna call matt when i wake back up later. i miss him. and i feel bad. i think he thinks im mad at him. im not. i love him =). on that note, xoxo.
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[17 Feb 2002|11:57am] |
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yesterday was pretty fun. i woke up and called the mattmonkey and he came over for a little, then i went to work. then he met me after work and me him and kenny met up with kate leigh sammy and sean in the village. me and matt were being incredibly silly on the subway. we were singing if i was a rich girl and nothings gonna stop us now. it was actually hilarious. i love him. so we were on west 4th and i visited eddie at whatever and showed him how my tattoo was going. hes fckin precious. he saw me and he got this huge smile across his face, i thought it was adorable. so we left and matt went and got a fake ID which actually doesnt look so bad. we talked to kate and we said we were gonna meet them at the espn zone. we went into urban outfitters. its such a fckin amazing store. i got glasses and a thong. then we met up with them. kate broke up with sean. its definitly not gonna come even close to lasting. not because kates weak or anything just because right now theyre supposed to be together, its just so obvious. they love each other. so we were singing and dancing and being little sillies, and then we went home. i went to matts for a little. amazing hehe. and i left at like 1 cause he hadda be up at 5 this morning to go look at the colleges he got accepted to. im not sure which ones hes going to today, im pretty sure binghamton and albany today, possibly oneinta(have no idea how to spell it) and the other one he got accepted to was stonybrook, but thats like a half hour drive from ehre so he could go do that anyday. anyway hes gonna be gone for the whole day =(, so im prolly just gonna chill with my girlies. im going bowling with my little cousin at 1, and then WHO KNOWS where ill got from there?! oh dear. xoxo.
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| i need a break. |
[16 Feb 2002|11:08am] |
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last night was fckin terrible. me and matt broke up for like a few hours, it was ridiculous. he fckin yelled at me again. i was so pissed off. i mean of course we made up, but i was still sooooo pissed for a WHILE. i talked to john about it, he just thought that matt was being silly and for me not to be upset about it. its cool that me and him can talk about shit like this. anyway so last night blew hardcore, but whatever. today i have work from 3-7:45....i really hope im working with fun people because i dont think i can handle beasts today. lizbean got engaged on valentines day! im so happy for her. shes so excited. i mean tyler and her are both pretty young but theyre happy. so im happy for her =). well im outta here. xoxo.
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today was such a great day. actually me and matt got into 2 retarded fights but we always make up like 4 minutes afterwards. i love him. he gave me this big teddy bear and it had this little box tied to a bow on its neck and inside the box was an absolutely beautiful sweetheart ring. it has our initials and on the outside of the 2 hearts its lined with 3 diamonds on each side. its amazing. i just got him some shirts from the gap and im gonna buy him some boxers this weekend. i made him a card. he said he really liked it. so after he got off of work we went to his house, and that was when stupid fight number one occured but that ended because kissing started to occur and so on....hehe. so then we went downstaris and fell asleep for 2 hours. then we went to dinner at unos with kate, leigh, sean and sammy. thats when fight 2 occured. i told them we'd meet them there and he was pissed because i didnt ask him if he wanted to go. which i kinda understand but its just like, its pizza. calm. so i was pissed at him for like a good 20 minutes for yelling at me about pizzeria unos. he kept apologizing and at first i was so mad at him, but then i just broke down. he walked away into the bathroom and he just looked so sad, so i walked in like 2 minutes after him while he was peeing(lol) and i gave him a hug from behind and said iw as sorry. he started hysterically laughing, it was great. i didnt even think about it till after the fact but it must have made him feel a little uncomfortable for the 2 seconds before he realized it was me to be peeing in the mens room and someone come up in back of you and put their arms around his waist. lol its actually really funny. so now im home and freakin tired out of my mind. when i came in my mom gave me my valentines day gifts and i gave her the card i got her. my mom is always so cool with gifts, she always finds the most creative stuff. like this year she got me a bunch of stuff but one was a big chocolate heart filled with swedish fish(its funny because i am swedish) and she got me an m+m's picture frame with pink, red and white m+m's in it. i dunno shes just really cute. well im off to bed. xoxo.
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